Obsession kills

I'm beginning to think that my obsession is in KPOP, particularly with 2NE1 is consuming me. I spend my every waking day thinking about them. The big chunk of time during the day is spent in front of the computer, surfing the net and finding something new about KPOP. It's like I lost control and let this urge of obsessing over Koreans take over me. According to Bo Sanchez, obsession is a way to fill emptiness in each of us. I think it's our coping mechanism working when we unintentionally develop an obsession. I also think that obsession is a reflection of the desires of our hearts. Paula Rinehart tells her readers that it is important not to disregard our desires. We should let it lead us because it is where we will discover the reason for living. I guess what really bothers me right now is that I don't have balance in my life right now. I like KPOP too much and 2NE1 way tooooo much. While there is nothing wrong about liking something so much, there still has to be balance. I should go back to the balancing everything in my life so that I'd be able to feel the peace again.

I haven't said this in a long time. Thank you Lord. I will always be thankful for everything.

I like you because..

I was completely blown away by your performance. At first, I was not aware that you had that effect on me. It was unexplainable feeling that came over me. Looking back, I realized that it was your charisma that's overflowing on stage that really got me hooked. I watched 2NE1 TV and somehow I have gotten to know you more. I see myself in you. You are that type of person who puts on a tough facade but deep inside there is an undeniable softness that just goes unexpressed. You inspire me to always do my best in whatever I do. I hope one day I would get to meet you.

Fucking bumps on the road

They say that when you encounter a bump in the road, you should take time to breathe and move on after wards. I recently got into an accident. I don't know how the hell am i supposed to move on with this. It's not as bad. It's just that i have to live with my sisters' constant nagging. O Lord please help me.

Doubts

Lord, please help me when doubts fill my heart and mind. Replace it with Your grace so i'll be able to offer my best to others.

So help me God

I'm having a tough time at work.It was all so overwhelming considering that I have limited training. I thank God for the nice office mates I have and over all I'm really blessed to be surrounded by really nice persons. Thank You Lord!

I STAND BY MY DECLARATION

I have no idea what God has planned for me. Maybe He has it all laid out and I'm just about to reach that point where i would gracefully go through that part of the journey. I can't wait! I'm so excited! If there is one thing to learn in all the hard things that I've been through, it's really to trust God with your life. It seems illogical but that is why it's called a leap of faith. I choose to thank God for helping me get by. I still firmly believe that this is all a preparation for something BIG and really good in my life. Hard times will definitely end so instead i'll be happy and prepared to welcome a good day ahead! God thank You so much. I'm waiting for your tight embrace. =)

MY DECLARATION

YES GOD HAS BETTER PLANS FOR ME. I HAVE WAITED FOR SO LONG. BUT SO WHAT SOMETHING GOOD IS ALWAYS WORTH THE WAIT! I WILL GET A GOOD JOB SOON. I WILL GET A JOB THAT MATCHES MY EDUCATIONAL BACKGROUND. I WILL GET A JOB THAT WILL MAKE ME A GOOD PERSON. I WILL GET A JOB THAT I WILL THOROUGHLY ENJOY. I WILL GET A JOB THAT I AM BORN TO DO. I WILL GET A JOB THAT WILL MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD. I WILL GET A JOB WITH A HEALTHY WORKING ENVIRONMENT. I WILL GET A JOB THAT WILL MAKE ALL MY FAILURES IRRELEVANT. I WILL GET A JOB AND I THANK GOD FOR THAT.

Be hopeful, hopeful and He'll find a way!

I’m strong in the Lord. I’m blessed. I’m forgiven. I’m protected. I’m redeemed. I’m equipped. I’m anointed. Healing flows in my body. New doors will open before me. I’ll meet the right people, the right opportunities, at the right time, at the right place. I’ll regain ten times what I lost…
In Jesus name!

I CAN'T LET MYSELF BE SUCKED IN THIS DOWNWARD SPIRAL. I GET MY STRENGTH FROM JESUS TO RISE ABOVE MY SITUATION. I WILL FOREVER BE THANKFUL TO THE LORD WHO HAS BEEN WITH ME IN THIS TIME OF TRIAL. I KNOW IT WILL END SOON. I KNOW I AM BEING PREPARED FOR SOMETHING BIG IN MY LIFE. I AM NOT BORN TO BE A LOSER. I AM BLESSED AND IT IS MY DUTY TO PAY IT FORWARD.

Preparing for take off

As what I've said in my previous entry, I've been through a lot of frustrations this year. As i refuse to focus on my failures, i did my best to shift my attention from the negative to positive. I can feel the fire in my heart and i still continue to pray to God that this would be the start of something good.

I need a light bulb

I believe that in every difficult situation, there is a tricky way to get out of it. I'm facing a major setback right now. I tried the conventional way out but it doesn't seem to work for me. I just have to find that hidden passage way out so that i can see the light. I will continue praying that God would soon lead me to that path where i can redeem myself and do what i was born to do.I will soon get to that light bulb moment.

Where is the love?

I know in my heart that God loves me. After all that is happening to me, how can i continue believing that God really does loves me? Sometimes i just want to fade away.

Random Thoughts for today

Another big blow
The Philippines is again bracing itself for another typhoon, only a week after the devastating typhoon Ondoy. A lot of people are still trying to recover from the unexpected onslaught of Ondoy yet here's Pepeng slowly showing off its extreme force. People have learned their lessons now. Filipinos are now prepared by expecting the worst. Lots of people have hoarded basic necessities such as food, water, flashlight, batteries, and many more. Owners of supermarkets cannot keep up with the demand of easy to cook food such as canned goods, noodles, and water.

At first you'd think that a lot of people have now become paranoid. But after Ondoy, no one could be complacent enough. Ondoy left everyone dumbfounded and overwhelmed by nature's wrath. Who knew that even those people who belong to the upper bracket of the society would be affected by the flood brought by Ondoy?

Preparing Myself
I've been unproductive for the majority of 2009. I've encountered more failures than successes. I became so down at one point but I always know how to stand up again and keep on fighting no matter what. This drought in my life taught me not to waste my time again and even made me realize the importance of giving it your best shot always so as not to have regrets in the end.