Wednesday, December 26, 2007


hands up! it fucking hurts! God, save me..

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

now tell me how is it being done?

hayyyy.. i would really like to let you go.. completely! but i can still feel the weight in my heart.. i hope that i would be able to find it in my heart to forgive you.. and just forget about our past.. how do you really let go of someone? is it even possible? well, i guess it just happens.. shit happens..

Monday, December 24, 2007

little by little

i can do this.. i can really let you go.. moving on is different from letting go.. moving on means going through life as expected.. letting go, on the other hand, means forgetting the past.. i can do this! i know i can..

Sunday, December 23, 2007

time to let go

it has been more than year since our relationship ended.. after that bitter ending, matters have not resolved between us.. maybe you are still confused over our past.. how can you appreciate what you have when you have not cleared things between us? how can you have peace of mind when you are not honest with yourself? maybe i am starting to move on.. because i just want you to be happy with her.. as i am writing this, i feel a light feeling of slowly letting you go.. of course it is not easy.. just thinking of you makes me happy because of the comfort it brings.. but then it has to end.. feeling bitter over the past is clearly not doing me any good.. lately i have been very moody because of the burden i still keep.. i love you.. or maybe i have loved you.. but it is really time for me to let you go..

i am still thankful for everthing that you have given me.. i am thankful for the moments we have spent in each other's arms.. i am just so thankful for having you in my life.. now it's over.. i have to wake tothe reality that you are never coming back..

i promised myself..that next year i will not be bounded by our past.. i will not do things in reference to our past.. next year would be a new year.. i'll leave all the sad memories by the end of 2007..