happy endings, is there such thing?

well, yes..maybe.. when good things end, that's bad. when bad things end, that's good. sounds really ironic but makes a lot of sense. i don't want to go on talking about my past again (as in way, way back). i bumped (no, i didn't just bumped into someone. it's appropriate to insert the phrase "and then we kissed" about the "bump" scene i had with this someone) into someone last week and i thought "this is it.." right.. he texted me on tuesday or wednesday.. i dunno.. and that's it.. he never bothered reaching out to me again.. hello? am i the guy here? should i be the first one to approach? duh!

anyway..

i found a book entitled Happy Endings by Luis Katigbak. i am very much familiar with the author (not that i know him personally). it's because i stumbled upon his book "The King of Nothing to do" while strolling along the Filipiniana section of the university library. i spent a lot of time there since i am a phil. studies major. i just grabbed the book because of its cute cover (i do judge a book by its cover!). i liked it and even got inspired to write a looong entry on my multiply blog. then i also stumbled upon his blog (i don't remember how). one of his entries is about the new book "Happy Endings". i tried looking for it in national bookstore but as expected there are limited filipiniana books there. yesterday afternoon, i dropped by sm mega for some business. i went through the power books entrance since it's the neares entrance from mrt station. i just couldn't help it but go directly to filipiniana section. i have no particular book in mind. i just know at that time that i was looking for something in that section. then i saw happy endings! yey! without a second thought, i charged it on my credit card (even if it's only 200 pesos). it's definitely a good buy.. i'm almost done with it.. tsk..i have to figure out how to drop it.. i have business matters to attend to.. i hope luis katigbak writes a novel related to one of the short stories there..

fleeting happiness makes you realize..

fleeting happiness catches you by surprise to make you realize that yes, you can be happy despite the pain that has once crushed your entire being. one person left but a lot of people and opportunities are welcoming you. learning is still a never-ending process even in the middle of bliss. well, you have to realize that there should never be expectations that bliss is sustainable.. moments are fleeting.. just make the most out of it..

the fall

oh, no.. don't make me.. if you'll be gone anyway..

when we have to say goodbye..

the thing i miss the most is the person i became because of that person. that person left together with a piece of you, now you're left with a hollow space inside of you. it's not you who's difficult to forget.

read books!

"The man who does not read good books
has no advantage over the man who
cannot read them."
- Mark Twain

and that is mainly the reason why i fell in love with books. it's magical when the piece that you're reading describes how you feel. feelings that you were unable to express may be let out uncontrollably in the form of tears. books, like movies talk to us. it lets us examine what we hold close inside of us.

adrenaline rush

Perhaps people who up and leave a life that they are used to are escaping reality. But I think it's the "reality" of others--that is, other people's idea of what life is supposed to be and how it's supposed to be lived--that they are actually shedding, so that they can make space for the kind of life, a way of living, that takes into consideration the things that they most value. A life, in other words, that reflects who they really are.
*reposted from Tara FT Sering's blog.

i love watching artists excel in their craft! it's like i can also feel the surge of adrenaline when they do what they love most. up to now, i continue to search for that thing that gives me an adrenaline rush. i believe it's performing on stage. baring myself naked, not literally on stage! hmm.. how bout a rockstar stint? i don't know.. i just want that adrenaline rush that is so contagious to the people witnessing that awe-inspiring event. i would love to be that person who pours out everything for what could be a life-changing performance of a lifetime.

the rockstar dream!

I'm currently listening to Chicosci's 7 Black Roses. Everytime I listen to this, I can't help but imagine playing this in guitar or drums and performing on stage. Oh, God. I wish you could help me learn to play an instrument. How bout violin? or guitar?