Friday, December 31, 2010

Hello 2011

Do you hate me for not talking to you deeply? I guess I've been so distracted. I haven't really felt your presence. Was I too happy to need you? I apologize for that. I feel so empty inside. Maybe it's waiting for you to come in? I dunno, really. I'll hang on for now. I hope to have a really blessed year. Good health and safety for me and my family are more than enough for me. love you.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

heavy heart

Yeah, I have to walk away from those happy days. Lord, my heart is so heavy. I lift up my burdens to you. This is once again something that is beyond my power. You know how I really feel. You know my intentions. Please help me say the right things at the right time. This is not easy. I hope and pray that I can get through this alive. Lord, You are once again testing me. I trust You Lord. Please help me. Please. Ease my burden. I trust that You are doing this for a reason. I trust You. I trust my life to You. Please help me clean my name before I leave the company. Please help me explain myself to my boss. Please help me make myself understood. Please O Lord. I beg You.