emotional baggage

Whether I put a name on it or not, I always have this emotional baggage that I carry everywhere I go. As much as I would like to get rid of it, I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to do that. They say forgive everyone who offended you, who have sinned against you, who put you through a lot of crap. To say 'i forgive you' is easy, but to really mean it is an entirely different story. They say, it starts with the Lord. So ok, where do I find you Lord? Because you seem to be absent in my life for a long time. Am I too negative or nothing is really happening?