Friday, June 26, 2009

things to do when i get home

1. get a license
2. get a job
3. get a life
4. exercise daily. hey, exerise releases endorphins in our brains. endorphins make us happy. happy people don't kill other people. hehe
5. confess
6. pray
7. forgive
8. be happy
9. be rich
10. love

i've packed my luggage. i've been far away only to realize that distance is irrelevant. i'm still hurting. not because you didn't love me back. not because our relationship didn't work. not because you insulted me. it's BECAUSE it's finally sinking in. i lost YOU and you're never coming back. one day we'll face each other again and i know for sure that i will not see the same person i used to know.

you know why losing you hurts so much? it's because i put on this front that i'm a strong person and i don't know how to be vulnerable again. i'm alienated to others and so on.. life sucks after that.

i still see you as a wonderful person. i hate myself for loving you still. i hate myself more for admitting it. wherever you are i pray for your safety and happiness.

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