what the F?

"Failed writer, failed life.. I love the word failure. Failure is human destiny. Failure teaches us that life is but a draft, a long rehearsal for a show that will never play." -Amelie (french film)

you get better as long as you edit every mistake in a particular draft. tss..but c'mon, we always have this tendency to prolong the agony of doing drafts until it's past the deadline.

unsaid

to j..
i still think of you often. you have been a part of me. you gave me reason to live. i am a different person because of you. i was deeply hurt because of all the things that happened between us. we both tried to fix it but it's really out of our hands. i believe that all these are meant to happen. i hope we both do well in our chosen path. i'm sorry but i just can't go on loving you anymore. there is nothing left but memories.

to mom..
i've been busy "growing up" that i forgot all about you. it's you that has been missing in my life. i look forward to the day that we'll meet again. i love you.

paramita album

full of angst resulting from a relationship that had gone bad.
makes you wallow, drown yourself temporarily in that pool of bitterness, which isn't so bad at all. it would make you realize that it's not worth it having a dip on that same pool.
expect a flashflood of memories with the heart-piercing lyrics and mellow mood of the song.

one step at a time

right now, i'm taking life one step at a time. i just got out of college and i'm now in full control of my life. it's up to me to choose which path to take. when i think about it, there's really no path laid for each one of us. there are trails that are left by those who have come ahead. along the way, there are people we meet but as we go on, we'll realize that we are really alone. those people will come and go. we may develop a special attachment to them but really no matter how long they've stayed, they will go.
right now, i'm on my own. it's up to me on how i'm going to get "there." to that place where we will all end up. i have my goals. sort of a mission in life. just like what bo sanchez said, "bite size it!" he gave michael jordan as an example. michael scores 32 points per game. how does he do it? he took it one step at a time. that's 8 points per quarter. oh yeah.

haunted

it's the time again when i'm haunted by sad memories. i know i have no choice but to close that chapter in my life and i'm about to enter a new one. maybe i'm scared. maybe i'm too scared becaue i don't really know what's in store for me outside my comfort zone. it's scary. that i refuse to leave my comfort zone even if it's not too comfortable anymore. Lord. please. help. me. i can't do this alone. i don't want to be bitter. i want to be better.

enough!

i'm never enough for you.
stupid. don't let your bitterness consume you.
there are a lot of things coming for you.
shit i think i'm developing an alter ego.

you're thinking the wrong thing

you know what to do yet you keep on complaining. always keep in mind the bigger picture. there is a reason for everything that is happening. just have faith in Me. i know where to lead You. do what you gotta do and give it your best shot. you already know your purpose. life is not for you only. offer everything to Me and to others. don't be selfish. change your autopilot.