wallowing..

i read her blog and it made me think about the future that we can possibly have. i still can't tell where i stand in her life. maybe i'm just a good memory that she doesn't want to be erased, a good memory that she would love to play over and over.. i have to admit that i almost become crazy for the unexpected "letter" sent to.... a lot possibilities came to my mind. was it real? of course she's still seeing her ex. and where does that put me? i spent the whole day in bed analyzing the whole situation. if i could just see the whole picture, that would have been easier. God alone knows the whole picture. He knows who really is the one for me. He alone knows how our lives would turn out. the only thing left for us to do is hope for the best. we deserve only the best. i pray that she'll always have strength to take the blows in life. pain would always be there. again, let's leave to God our best hopes and Trust in Him.