mixed thoughts

i think i know why it's hard to live life. it's because we walk with no purpose.
Catholics and Christians would always insist that we all should not hold grudges against others. Doctors, Psychologists, etc insist that it has a bad effect in our heart, or to be more particular, in our heart. Really? How do you do that? i know for sure that it's not easy at it seems to be. definitely not. as long as it is retained in the memory, it's not going to be easy to forgive. but sooner or later we all should let go of the pain, mainly for our sake. sour-graping won't do us any good after a long time of doing so. why? because we can't changed what happened in the past. it's there already. it's not like we can do something about it when we feel bitter about it. i guess forgiveness is about accepting for what had happened. with bitterness, revenge is the next thing that our instinct tells us to do, which for me isn't a good idea. c'mon! i wouldn't do that to someone i once professed to love. nyehnyeh.. it sounds stupid but i think the saying "love your enemies" makes sense. because it's the greatest "revenge" of all. your enemy would feel humiliated when you show kindness to them, plus! those gap between you and that person might just be erased. oh yeah.