i need to..

distance myself.. go away from you as much as possible..
YOU DO NO GOOD TO ME
YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT
I HATE YOU
you're just someone i once knew.

feeling worthless

there's nothing more depressing than feeling really worthless.. i'm not romantically speaking.. it's actually worse than that.. it's really an awful feeling.. when you're being judged.. and you know that they have the right to judge you.. and what hurts is you know you did your best but still, it wasn't good enough..and then you start to question your worth..hayy.. what have i done to deserve this Lord? am i really that bad? sometimes i would think that i should just die.. but no.. i wanna die happy.. i want my last memories on earth to be happy.. tsk.. i'm not good enough.. now i know how a suicidal's mind works.. and this pain that i feel because of her seems endless! why? i really tried not to care.. why? why Lord? this is torture..

since you're God and i have to do the work.. i WILL NOT turn back now.. j__ and i are really over.. there's zero possibility that we can still be together.. i just have to be at peace with that fact..

now, on being articulate in English, hmmmm.. that stuff can be learned with intense study..

Lord, have mercy on me.. i did something awful a while ago.. tsk.. sorry..

hayy..shit happens in life..

tangina salamat ah!

masakit kasi hindi ka nagpaparamdam.
but it's better this way.
i need to get you out of my system.
wag ka nang bumalik pa.
puro sakit na lang nagawa mo.
tama na.
hindi ka pa nakuntento.

i surrender

it's not possible.. clearly.. you can't fight for me..

YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT.

three days to live

IF YOU DO ONLY HAVE 3 DAYS TO LIVE HERE ON EARTH,
WHAT WILL YOU DO WITH THOSE REMAINING DAYS?

-i copied this from my friend's blog..

DAY ONE
-spend it with my friends.. hs friends classmates and barkada, some blockmates, phm people, plaridel people
-just be happy with chilling out with them
-final drinking spree

DAY TWO
-spend time with family..bora!

DAY THREE
-spend time with her.. forget everything painful that happened..
-kiss her and hug her for the very last time..say my goodbye..
-really have a DECENT goodbye

BAD idea!

i knew it.. it wasn't a good idea after all.. how can you call it love when there isn't sacrifice involved? how can you say that you love a person when you don't fight for that person? everything's just bullshit.. yeah i think i have successfully drained myself.. there's nothing left to me.. nothing.. i am nothing.. i mean nothing to you.. i am nothing.. when will this suffering end? i'm done.. i can't stand it.. i just wanna end it all..

sorry hindi ko na nakayanan..

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not aww, sweet..

as in aww, masakit..tsk..those little things..

currently on the process of draining..