selfish

that's so selfish of you to play with our feelings.. it was very selfish that you only thought of your feelings..after that night, i knew that you're gone.. you wanted to be with me.. but you also can't let go of the other.. there's no need for you to choose.. because i already decided to move on.. as what i always say, we shared something special in the past.. but i just can't cling on that memory anymore.. still, thank you.. i know that there's no future for us..

I KNOW THAT YOU CANNOT LOVE ME LIKE BEFORE.. I'M JUST SOMEONE FROM YOUR PAST.. the past does not exist.. yes, i feel empty.. but then i know i'll find something or someone to fill up that lacking space that you left..thank you..

i hope someday we'll heal all our wounds..

true love?

just early this morning i was euphoric because i thought maybe i knew what it's like to truly love someone.. i understood what it's like to love without expecting anything in return.. not to dwell in the past.. and just let things unfold.. i thought i'll be ok.. but then.. there's a stabbing pain when i remember that i'm not the one that she loves.. she tells me that love will always be there.. c'mon.. what's that supposed to mean?

well i guess that's what love is all about.. label it as true.. it still hurts like hell..

now i know and i have to let go

fuck life! it's all clear to me now.. she already told me.. i guess it's enough for our closure.. i just want to be happy.. i just want to love again.. i want to feel that love still exists.. it's over.. it's really over.. it's just our past.. it's never coming back.. i have to say goodbye now.. later.. on saturday..

foul!

hands up! it fucking hurts! God, save me..

now tell me how is it being done?

hayyyy.. i would really like to let you go.. completely! but i can still feel the weight in my heart.. i hope that i would be able to find it in my heart to forgive you.. and just forget about our past.. how do you really let go of someone? is it even possible? well, i guess it just happens.. shit happens..

little by little

i can do this.. i can really let you go.. moving on is different from letting go.. moving on means going through life as expected.. letting go, on the other hand, means forgetting the past.. i can do this! i know i can..

time to let go

it has been more than year since our relationship ended.. after that bitter ending, matters have not resolved between us.. maybe you are still confused over our past.. how can you appreciate what you have when you have not cleared things between us? how can you have peace of mind when you are not honest with yourself? maybe i am starting to move on.. because i just want you to be happy with her.. as i am writing this, i feel a light feeling of slowly letting you go.. of course it is not easy.. just thinking of you makes me happy because of the comfort it brings.. but then it has to end.. feeling bitter over the past is clearly not doing me any good.. lately i have been very moody because of the burden i still keep.. i love you.. or maybe i have loved you.. but it is really time for me to let you go..

i am still thankful for everthing that you have given me.. i am thankful for the moments we have spent in each other's arms.. i am just so thankful for having you in my life.. now it's over.. i have to wake tothe reality that you are never coming back..

i promised myself..that next year i will not be bounded by our past.. i will not do things in reference to our past.. next year would be a new year.. i'll leave all the sad memories by the end of 2007..